How does one go about their life when they are unsure themselves?

My dear silence i can't hear you

There's a scream your silence that doesn't let anyone in.

I try to fit in but they always pushing me out. but its no big deal with me. Its just that this world don't understand nor need amazing people like me.

My heart is sick with grenades.

My heart is aching for silence in between it's endless beats.

You know, sometimes, I feel like the rain erodes us - bit by bit - until we become nothing but smudges on this paper world...

I see you laugh when you wanna cry
Darlin, you live but i know you wanna die...

But if I were to trip in traffic
I wouldnt try to get back up...

I'm slipping into my depression all over again.