I feel so cold and empty inside & its all because of you..

I really thought you were different... but no youre just like every other selfish, self-centered, hypocritical, stupid boy out there...

Why is it that i still get suprised when someone rejects? when someone doesnt want to be my friend? why does that still make me feel so empty? why does that make me pick up my blade?

How is it that just 1 stupid person can cause me 2 carve so many scars into my skin? just 1 stupid person can make me feel so empty inside...

The razer blade drags across my skin
the blood flows like a river down my arm
Stainning it like rusted red paint.

(This was gonna be a poem but I like it better as a quote)

I'm addicted to the pain.

So scared that everyone is right.
I know i need my pills.
So scared ill be taken away again
Locked up for a month.
But the scariest is knowing i feel much worse than last time.

My defiinition for Bipolar Disorder;

B.roken
I.ndiscriable
P.ain
O.verdose
L.ies
A.nxiety
R.egret

D.eath
I.nsanity
S.miles
O.ngoing
R.unning wild
D.epression
E.ternity
R.age

Have you ever wondered what hurts more, saying something and wishing you hadn't or saying nothing and wishing you had?

*not mine*

I am a girl who suffers
But I don’t want a show
I’ll always suffer in silence
And hope they never know
Because they are everything
My friends deserve it all
They deserve the happy end
They shouldn’t watch me fall