I can't (for Andrea)

by Brenda   Dec 3, 2017


I can't form words,
I can't form thoughts,
my mind is in a fog,
can't seem to find my way out...
-
I want to hold on,
I want to take your place,
this room is filling with smoke,
it scars up my lungs,
I'm starting to choke...
-
I rail at the heavens,
I curse at the hell,
I shake my head at the doctors,
unable to make you well...
-
I have loved you from the start,
my beautiful baby bird,
splashed with rays of sunshine,
that has always warmed my heart...
-
We had our days in the sun,
did we not?
Now the winter sun has come in low,
no more endless summer days
for us to while away...
-
I can't think of the end,
I can't think of you being gone,
Don't know how I'll mend this shattered heart,
when my baby bird
no longer sings her song...

For Andrea (Maple Tree) the purest earth mother I have ever known. I won't pretend to fully understand how devastating this whole thing is. I just know as a mom myself, my heart breaks for you and your family. Hugs my friend-

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  • 3 years ago

    by Em

    Still reading this and it still fills me with emotion every time

    • 3 years ago

      by Brenda

      Hugs dear Em, hugs....

  • 3 years ago

    by Gwenyth Hill

    Your empathy level is so amazing... I really hope that who you dedicated this poem to is able feel that when they read this. Truly a beautiful but bittersweet poem.

    • 3 years ago

      by Brenda

      Gwen, thank you so much for such wonderful comments. She feels this and that gives me great relief.

  • 3 years ago

    by Michael

    Miss Brenda

    You have such a deep and caring heart, and I really am feeling this in your poetry. Beautiful and sad to read, but never stop writing - please :)
    Much love
    Michael :)xx

    • 3 years ago

      by Brenda

      Thank you so much Michael! All a labor of love. Hugs to you-

  • 3 years ago

    by naaz

    Brenda, When we hear about such things we get scared, and this devastating thing is happening in life of our dear friend, Andrea.
    It is a heart breaking moment for pnq family too.

    How could one stop himself from not complaining to the heavens about it?
    Or to stop himself from not saying offensive words at the hell?
    How could one be strong in that moment when doctors say they are unable to make their beloved well?

    I am sure whosoever is aware of this unfortunate situation is thinking good for Andrea's family in one way or another.
    Many of us is praying to God, please glow the sun of hope in Andrea's life once again. So, that this fog of disease which has completely covered her family in darkness gone once for all and she could see her baby bird flying high in the sky once again covered with rays of sunshine, warming her heart too.
    She could form words around her once again on an endless summer day. They sing the song of togetherness beneath starry skies. Her heart is no more shattered, no more choked with smoke of the melancholy and she could find her way out of it.
    This poem is an extension to Andrea's poem 'it's raining', but in your words.
    Like her you have portrayed the same emotions of a mother who is broken, out of hope.
    Brenda, you write less with simplicity, but it always powerful. To be honest, it is heartbreaking too.
    All this, Andrea's going through is becoming very hard for me to read, but if these little tributes of our bring feeling of relief to Andrea's and her daughter in any way, it's good, isn't it?
    You, David and many others are doing it every day and as a pnq 'r I am thankful to all of you.

    • 3 years ago

      by Brenda

      Naazz, as always thank you for such an insiteful commentary. This is my only way to grasp how Andrea,might be feeling. My small way to let her know we are all thinking of her.

  • 3 years ago

    by Ren

    I'm bawling. This is just amazingly beautiful and sweet, Brenda. What a wonderful dedication for two beautiful souls <3 so much love to you!!

    • 3 years ago

      by Brenda

      Thank you so much Ren. We are all hurting for Andrea and her family, I hope in some way this eases some of her hurt.

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