Embrace Your Death

I woke up one day and never thought no more
thought of how i had walked out that door.
never thought of all those i left behind
not once about those who were crying

I only thought of myself and how i wanted things to be
i wished that i would find someone who loves me for me.
i wish they knew how i felt, how it happened so quickly
if they only knew what my problems were, that's associated with me.

I don't think they even understand
let alone know where it began
try to think back when i would be alone
it set out my life, or at least the tone.

Silent on my own, never needing another soul
only to find out that i had no where else to go.
i need the comfort companionship, caring and cuddling
Call it what it is, i just consider it something called loving.

Never once have i left the room, out of my own free will
i look out my window and place my hand upon the sill.
silently i watch as others grew up and moved along
but all the while in my head i knew there was something wrong

i am not like the others, i am different in every way
i just wanted someone to stop and notice...perhaps a girl says hey
no one remembers or notices me, they just let me alone, let me be.
if i could have one wish for this night, for everyone to remember me....from just one sight.............................

*Free association writing, let me know what you think guys/gals!*

© 2005 Shaun M.K