I crave the rush of nicotine, the way it turns my fingertips into a tingling blur of motion. How I can feel it in my toes. Can close my eyes and just be, for just a moment.

The Listening by Lights stuck in my head today.

"Nobody puts Baby in a corner" is: No one is better than you, the world deserves to see you shine, to be heard, loved, see you dance never let anyone hide who you are.

(The quote came from the movie Dirty Dancing).

Lose yourself
to come to yourself.

“INDUSTRY BABY” by Lil Nas X featuring Jack Harlow is the latest hype song. On repeat.

“Wherever I Go” by OneRepublic on repeat in my head.

Humans are like complex numbers.

“I’m so sick of myself / rather be, rather be / anyone, anyone else” - jealousy, jealousy by Olivia Rodrigo.

We never are
as important
as forgetting
ourselves.

The bitter fact of life you have to deal with my son is that not all the days are before Sunday.