It's just not what I do...

I don't cut myself with razors
I don't live for my body to bleed
I don't watch my pain trickle away
It's just not what I need

I don't drink away my problems
I don't make them "disappear"
I don't annihilate my liver
I'd rather not live in fear

I don't burn myself with salt and ice
I don't desire to lose control
I don't need another lifetime scar
I've got enough across my soul

I don't smoke to make it another day
I don't inhale the poison for it to seethe
I don't want to commit a slow suicide
I'd much rather be able to breathe

I don't want you to feel sorry for me
I don't want you to think that I'm okay
I don't need another crushing moment
I just want everything to go away

I don't do these things, but I'm not strong
Weakness isn't what I just said
The worst things that I do to myself
Are the things I do inside my head

~rolo

Thanks for reading.