Blast the music...Block out the world

Sometimes i wish i wake up
in the emergency room hearing
"she's not going to make it"

Breaking hearts is what you do the best but why does it have to be mine?

Why would you spend so much time fixing my broken heart just to break it once more?

They say life is like a deck of cards, it isn't what hand your dealt but how you use it. It's just to bad life gave me all the jokers.

Your warm presence
Melts the ice around my heart.
Maybe someday i'll be free
From depression's icy fingers.
I just hope Someday
Isn't too late.

You know when a girl is lying when she tells you that shes fine

Everything built up on me,
I couldnt take the strain.
So I blocked you out,
Sorry to cause you that pain.

(from my poem "revenge upon myself" please read it and comment =) thanks)

"dont come to my grave and cry...i'm dead...
your tears wont make a difference...they dont matter to me...
just like they didn't matter to you while i was alive..."

Why has the world turned on me and why have i turned on myself?