But what i see is everyone looking down on me, and im feeling like im the only one...when you dont even understand yourself, how can other's see where your coming from?

I just realized ... that iam not the only person on this earth who has been abondoned ... the world is full of beautiful souls still cryin for their love and may those beloved of ours have mercy on us cuz it hurts bad !

You DON'T know. You DON'T understand. I am completely empty inside except for anger, self-hatred, and intense pain. You can't fix me. I can't just "Cheer up!"

Tears run down my face as you wrap your arms around me, while blood runs down my back from the knife you put there

I should have given up on the world before it decided to give up on me.

You'll wake up one day and wonder where in the world I am, who I'm with, if I'm happy or not, and you'll feel so much regret for everything you've ever done to hurt me, and the truth is, when that day comes, I'll probably have forgotten about you.

& if theres one thing I learned in my life, it's that no matter how hard you fake a smile, or how pretty others tell you you are, it never means a thing, because you remember that the smiles a fake & that you don't feel beautiful at all.

Cover up with makeup,
walk out the doors,
paint on a smile,
and forget all the tears,
show the world just how tough you are.

Revenge is a confession of pain

I close my eyes and lie in bed
so many thoughts race through my head
Is it me or is it you, if it's me what did i do
i think it's you, though i'll never tell
how you make love, a living hell.