You say you understand..
But, do you know what it's like to want to die?? How it hurts to smile?? How you try to fit in, but you can't?? How you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the pain on the inside??

Sometimes it gets too much to bare, sometimes i just can't take it. So i look inside and try to find, the strength i have to fake it.

Loneliness is the most painful torture.

The saddest thing is when someone who has hardly seen the world has seen enough of it to know she doesn't want to be a part of it anymore.

I'm tired of always pretending everything is okay..
My tears are showing && my smile is fading away..

My mind will erase every detail
but my heart will always remeber

Normally people feel better after a good cry
But what if your like me, and all your tears are dry?
What about when your out of words say?
I can't stand being here one more day

-from my poem secretly insane

You were my sun shine when it rained ;
the hope i never had when everything was beyond insane .
the tears i felt like cryinq when you walked away .
you were mine ; once upon a time .

Sometimes I like being alone, then the only person that can hurt me is myself...

And how much more rest do I need?
Until I stop living life in a daze?