Not seeing a future, living meaningless. where am I going?

Once, just once, I want someone to look into my eyes, and as I look into theirs, I can see that they understand...

One of those days
where you need a hug but
only one persons arms would help, and they're to distant to notice.

I hate birthdays, they just remind me that each year I get further from that carefree child I used to be...

Sometimes I Remember The Darkness Of My Past.
Bringing Back These Memories I Wish I Didn't Have.
Sometimes I Think Of Letting Go && Never Looking Back.
&& Never Moving Forward So There'd Never Be A Past.

Yes, she has trust issues
but if you were her, you would too <3

P.S. i never changed, I just got tired of pretending to be happy.

If you have trouble seeing him
with somebody else;
you're not over him

She seemed so happy. .
yet much too depressed
they saw the smiles &&
overlooked the mess <3

)& she wants to prove she has no fears
so she stands up tall, wiping her tears.
this could be the most beautiful misake
because now, she's like everyone else ;:
Lonely & Fake.