Dear mom and dad

Dear mom and dad
when you read this, don't be sad
I'll be gone and I'll be dead
I shot a bullet through my head

Sorry that you have to see me this way
but I couldn't take another fu**ed up day
I was lost and so depressed
and everything in my head was such a mess

I know you don't understand why I did it
but I was in hell, something I couldn't live with
Look at the scars I've made
every time I was sad I took out my razor-blade

I pressed it deep in to my skin
again and again I continued with my sin
I know you are confused, cause you never knew
I did everything I could to hide it from you

The pain was there underneath it all
that's why no one never noticed I was about to fall
You thought I was happy, when my smile was fake
and now I'm paying for my own mistake

You'll never know how hard it is to cry
when all you think about, is how you wish to die
I was tired of crying myself to sleep
with a painful arm from cuts I made so deep

I lived in the dark, I was all alone
I thought I would make it, but couldn't do it on my own
So today I took some pills and made up my mind
I wanted to die and leave my hell behind

I cut my wrists and sat back with the gun in my hand
I prayed to God that you would understand
1....2....3 I pull the trigger back....

Copyright 2005 - Sabrina Stelmach