Do you feel bad ?
Do you feel alone ?
Lost ?
Confused ?
Just remember there's someone who feels the same as you.

Although comfortable, it's not safe to cry yourself to sleep. Your pillow will know every pain and then it feeds it back through your ears.

If I only did what I thought was right from the start maybe I could have prevented all this.

It was killing be inside holding on to the truth but I didn't want to hurt you.

Even if I say sorry a thousand time, I don't expect you to forgive me for what I did.

Admitting you're hurt can be harder than being hurt.

"I wish it was night time, so I could go look up at the sky on my bedroom window sail and cry my eyes out."

"Show me that you hate me,
and even want me dead...
but don't tell me that you love me...
because it won't be true when said... "
from my new poem 'Understand'.

We live to be pawns in the games played by the higher powers. And those games toy with our emotions and almost turn us insideout. Well, I'm done playing their stupid games, I'm done being a pawn.

Blood drips,
and smears,
Mixing,
always mixing,
With my painful tears.