"Love is knowing you don't deserve it."

How can you throw everything we had away so easy but then look me in the eye and tell me you love me??

Words alone can cut deeper then any blade.

I hear them whisper
i hear them talk
i see them stare
as i walk

giggles and laughter
fill the air
i feel so ugly
its just not fair

high school girls
can be so cruel
making girls like me
feel like such a fool

I know you're gone
But people tell me you're near
I'm longing to see you
Your voice I'm dying to hear

-For Brittany who died 2 days before Christmas.The holidays will not be so joyful without her.

It's really easy to tell yourself;
"I'm fine, honest.";
It's telling other poeple that brings tears to your eyes.

What am i supposed to do
sit here are smile at you
knowing that you dont care how i feel
when you dont know the truth

Its hard to say "i love you"
when you dont know if its true

I dont want to love you, but something in my heart gives me that small sliver of hope that maybe someday you'll change and love me for who i am; but its ripping me apart because i know nothing will ever change.

WHATS BETTER? A LIE THAT DRAWS A SMILE? OR THE TRUTH THAT DRAWS A TEAR?