It feels like i'm just a spectator watching my life go up in flames...

I think I'm afraid of being happy because every time I am something bad happens

My friends think I'm fine,
On the outside I am...
I know I'm not okay,
On the inside im dying of pain
They have no idea.
And I hope to keep it that way.

Our paths were always meant to cross, but they were never meant to forever be intertwind.
Like a child with and imagenary friend we weren't meant to last.
Yet, knowing this doesn't stop me from loving you. It just makes it hurt worse.

I am at my breaking point. I feel like after all of these years of being happier and without cutting, I feel like I am going to go back down that road again. And there is no one to hold me back. I feel like blowing my brains out.

If i died, i wonder if anyone would even notice i was gone...

Sometimes i think it would be better to just end my life, than to live through the pain ever day..

"Neverending Tear's,
You Cry Inside Your Heart.
Hoping No One Will Hear;
That Your Falling Apart."
<3

They say you use more muscles to frown than to smile. Well guess I'm getting hell of a work out then. =(

If I die tomorrow, it would only mean I done something right in life.