Im on the verge of breaking down again. But this time, I wont get back up.

Numb...
I miss it.
Not caring, not feeling-
Just a comforting embrace
Of complacent illusions
Telling yourself-
It doesn't really matter,
In the end..
That you are better off
Alone.

R.I.P
Big sis i love you&&miss you
sooo MUCH!
1-15-11

Life is like a wound, untill you look at it, and see how much damage you have made, it dosent hurt so bad, but the moement you do, it all comes rushing to you and almost knocks you over.

So lets pretend that the pain i feel everyday, is nothing. lets make believe that life is totally perfect, and i've never been hurt. and lets laugh, like out lives arn't totally and completely screwed up.

Most days I try my best to put on a brave face.

I never hated you for not loving me. I never hated seeing you with the person you love cause I know you're happy. However, I hate you for making me fall even more when I'm trying to let you go.

How can I let go when my heart says hold on? How can I say goodbye when all I want to say is hello? How can I forget when I can't stop thinking of you? How can you fall out of love just when I'm about to say I love you?

You told me you cared, but you just sat there while I balled my eyes out!

I tried to wash away my pain, but the salt water that surrounded my body, penetrated my cuts and stung like hell!
~ Liz ~