My last poem

by BleedingAngel   Mar 15, 2005


*maybe this will be my last poem, I really don't know. I sit with the blade and pills in my hand, I'm ready to go.....I'm so fu**ed up!*

You did it again, didn't you
you lied to me
and thought I didn't knew
that I was too blind to see

Well, I see it all so damn clear
I have had enough
what you did was my biggest fear
you don't deserve my love

How many times do I have to forgive you?
and listen to all of your shit?
this is me, this is what you do
you break me apart bit by bit

Because of you I just want to die
I have nothing else to live for
this is the end, my life passed by
and I don't have to live with this anymore

I put the blade upon my wrists
and see the blood red and thick
look at me now, you made me do this
you made me so damn sick

I say one last prayer
as I look down at my hands
"God are you there?
I know you understands!

Please give me some kind of sign
have you abandoned me too?
this is my end, this is my time
God I'm coming home to you".

My eyes are closed, my voice is low
I feel safe, I feel an inner peace
I am more than ready to go
now that my pain has been released!

Copyright 2005 - Sabrina Stelmach

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  • 18 years ago

    by Monique

    Hey there,
    wow.. very dark, i like how you started it off by giving us a scene..i just hope that scene given wasnt real.. I just hope. well, hope ur ok. good job on this, and I have just written a new poem and would like ur opinion on it.. Its called, "Cause Of Death: Rape (Part I). Im working on Part II:). well i hope to read a new poem from you soon.
    Monique

  • 18 years ago

    by crystaljean88

    I cAN feel ur hurt 5/5

  • 18 years ago

    by ~â‚£ading |nspiration~

    See? You manage to stay to this day...so don't give up...there is light...if u get rid of the dark...something I think u hasn't been able 2 do...hope you can...remember my advice...please don't let me down...

  • 18 years ago

    by Once an Angel

    Oh baby, to think you could ever feel this way. You poems themselves are enough to prove your talented beauty. Sometime if you feel like it I would invite you to read my poem "Suicide through someone else's eyes." Just a thought. I have tried to kill myself seven times in the last two years, and I am a cutter too, so I see where you are coming from. I wish I could hold you and make you feel loved and cared about and safe. It hurts me so badly to hear about suicide and how so many people want to die. I love you hun! Write me whenever you need a friend!

    -Mikochan

  • I gave you a five because I love your poems so much, there filled with so much emotion. What is being felt in the poem really touches me. Please continue writing the amazing poems

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