I am sitting here waiting in the depth of despair,
wondering how I will ever get from here to there...
This planet is so brutal
Who can I trust...
Raped in fanatic desperation
Shallow descent into the lonely cold...
I thought I had served my time,
thought I had finally learned...
No one knew the dementing torture
that repeating memories poisoned her mind with...
Mom?
Do you even know what mom means...
Dimmed eyes, still I see
blue devils dancing around...
Depression grows in our lives no matter where we...
It feeds on our emotions and not just our scars...
Today I write,
tomorrow I won't...
I believe that you were killed,
even if it wasn't murder by the book...
I'm a balloon,
taped to an oxygen tank...
Anything -
I don't want to feel...