I'm in a dark hole and I'm not coming out anytime soon

I just want this all to end that's all I'm asking for.

The blade is calling my name I want to reach for it yet something holds me back and I don't know what it is

I always felt that she deserved more than anything that could be bought on Earth. That is why God has now bought her a house in Heaven.

I chased my muse over rainbows and through magical forests. It said to stop following.

" Many come to our lives.. only some stay while the rest walk away..... but now when i turn back to see who stayed................... i see none..........."

"People usually wake FROM a nightmare, but i always wake INTO a nightmare"

:(

Sometimes... I just... *sigh* doesn't matter.

Suicide is always an option. but the question is, if youve failed as much as i have, is it the right option?