And there you are, holding her hand. And I'm standing here lost, trying to understand...

I wish i could see the last 10 minutes of my life. then i would finally have something to look forward to.

See me smile...........
see me cry...............
see me laugh...........
see me die..............

I don't know what to feel anymore
since you walked out that door
i just don't know anymore

Breaking free from my cell
The blade is the key
Put it to my wrist
And let the rest set me free

part of my poem Painless Suicide

Nothing belongs to us,
God owns everything,

Anything I have ever had,
Was barrowed and given back

So I let my soul speak out... express it's sadness, scream it's pain, moan it's hurt, whisper it's death...

The day you went away...

Broken inside
ashamed of herself

be strong...be strong
she repeats.

Although she experiences so
much pain, at the end of the day theres
still room to smile.

I just dont have it in me to care anymore