I wish you where here, only you took the time to understand me, everyday its harder, im sorry for everything, im sorry for pushing you away, I just loved you so much i couldnt say goodbye

I can only do something for so long until it kills me.

"What you do speaks so loud that I cannot hear what you say."
-Emerson

When I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn, rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice. Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling, and I didn't feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain just smile back. -Eminem

I didn't choose to feel this pain, so why is it here? And when is it going away?

Life keep giving me reasons to trust no one but me.

You always know just what to say to make me feel:

[ ]Not good enough
[ ]Worthless
[ ]Pathetic
[X]All of the above

I want to just stay home today and not bother with anyone, but i know i need to keep doing this stuff of "trying" to get better, when i relize its all hopeless. ughhh

Everyday it pops into my mind i try to fight it , but yet i dont want to live like this, i wanna let go and fly away

I dont understand why your trying now, its weird being with you, im scared, but once again i love you so much, i jsut dont know