Every single day the thought of suicide hides in the back of my mind, every single day . Yeah I'll put on a smile just to prove to you I can hold my shit together

Everyone talks about his/her girlfriend/boyfriend and I just sit there with a fake smile.
Inside my blood keeps boiling with jealousy and my heart keeps crying the tears of blood.
I am so jealous of the world.
I dont know what to do.

If I told You My dreams, You'd just shudder.
If I told You My Life story, You'd just worry.
If I toLd You My most deepest darkest secret ; You'd just be shocked and concerned.

I try to blend into the
world around me, but oil
will never mix with water.
I will never belong here.

The best way not to miss someone, is to convince yourself that you hate them.

The desperation in her voice, could make your heart crumble

I feel like I'm drowning in the ocean, in the middle of a storm. My air is running out ... and in the few seconds that I manage to pull my head out of the water ....there is no shore.

Don't let the tears of your past
flood your future

Smile its only for a moment, then when everyone is out of sight you can continue to breakdown without a sound.

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad the dreams an which im dying are the best i have had