You clawed away at my masks
Layer after layer had been shed...
Day dreaming,
I'm zoning in and out...
Whenever I'm down,
I would sometimes get into my car...
You stand far apart
yet so close...
You've torn me here
You've torn me there...
To have a lump
lodged deep within my throat...
I blew smoke rings...
I believed in you, and
followed your steps...
There was silence in a darkened, still
the calmer I became the more anxiety screamed...
Leaving my bedroom sleepy and bleary
I chanced to look at the darkened spare room...
Another year born
without you...
Every new year we
plant a golden tree of hope...