I shouldn't forgive you
But I'll let it go by...
Sometimes when I drink warm water, my abdomen...
The pain is intense and sharp and fleeting...
Winter is here again,
bringing a touch of frost...
I am not who you think I am,
I am not afraid to leave...
I wish I could believe
that no one would miss me when I am gone...
Sometimes we would talk between the silence,
but please don't believe that we stayed in touch...
Why come back now after the wreckage?
Why not come back when the ship was sinking fast...
You always thought that you could understand me,
but if you were in my head at all...
I wish I could get an answering machine
for my most unwanted thoughts...
Little did I know
that every time I wrote...
Take me back to that first night
and never let me go...
I cannot let anyone inside my head,
I can only think of you instead...