Need to go. bye friends

I glance at the mirror one last time
Nothing has revised
Maybe this is my punishment
To always be someone I despise

From my poem Killing the Facade

And it's finally coming back to me.. The need to feel the pain.

Don't you wish you could forget it all?
Everything?
Everything that leaves a frown, tear or sting?
When sleep is the closest thing,
That will distract you from your dreams
And the bed is only one that will catch you
When you fall...

Mistakes of the past greet the present
and kneel before those that are yet to come.

"I am sorry that my love poems aren't that great...I am new to this thing we call 'love' because I have never truly felt it before until I met him."

"I was so happy this morning...I was giddy and skipping around with a smile on my face. Funny how quickly you made it disappear."

Every day i try to fake a smile
and with every successful smile, my life becomes a lie.

I'm done waiting for people.
I want you to want me.
Until then, I'm done trying.

My want to live cannot compete with my passion to die.
-Jay Pierce-