If he loved me in the beginning. He woulda fought for me in the end.--

Everything I do is a mistake, Everything I say is an excuse. I'm on the breakage point because all I want to do is impress those around me. Disappointment is my Worst fear.

Closing the door behind me. I'm in a place that you can't find me. Avoiding suffering and misery. Serviving stress and pain. Unashamed of who i am here. Where it's ME and only Me.

Im trying to forget everything I did, everything you said

Im trying to forget the fact I loved you, also trying to forget that inside Im dead...

When you have no words to show your pain silence is the best language

when your lonely and have no one around your tears are your only friend

but when all the doors closed and locked the only key is blade

"The best talent I have is holding my tears in so no one will notice I'm crying inside."

"Its quite amazing how fast I can change emotions from really happy to feeling depressed and suicidal."

When you look at me you see a strong woman,but when i look in the mirror i see a broken child.

Missing Those Memories
that we never had...

(Dedicated to my grandparents, who died before i was born, i hope one day to tattoo this quote onto my arm one day)

Again...
I feel lost
worthless
unwanted
hated
and
empty...
Somehow it seems like it's a never ending spiral.