Shooting Stars are in the sky.
You watch as one passes you by;
You make a wish; hope it comes true.
I always wait, but they never do

-Stephen Denny Paul White

The Only Joy In Holding This Gun To My Head Is Knowing The Fact That When I Pull The Trigger...
IM DEAD

I'm

F.@!% up
I.nsecrure
N.eurotic
E.motional

just F.I.N.E.

My tears distort and merge
As they fall down my face
And with them falls my soul
Plummeting from grace

If death was so bad.
Why isn't life good?
I've been a stain,
since my childhood.
I'm not a liver,
I'm a dreamer.
A dreamer of a lifeless life.
I have a hope,
I'm a hopeful loser.
I'm a hopeful loser in a hopeless life.

You see me smiling
but inside i'm dieing
no one will ever see
this river of tears i'm crying

There is no love that I can see...even from the own hands that created me.

She took one last look at herself
Still feeling the pain from her life
She took the razor of the shelf
And for the last time..
Closed her eyes

*from my poem 'The Last Time'

They say she does it 4 attention
and i say she does it b/c no one understands her
if i had 2 compare her life 2 an object, i would say her life is like the razer she uses evernight

I don't know what to do, i've lost so much, im so afraid, im out of touch....i cant hold on, it's all to much to take, everything hurts, this smile i can no longer fake....