I have never been this scared before,
never felt so out of control...
It lays heavy on my crowded cloud of thoughts,
Leaving me with nothing more than a sore back...
My mind and I are at a disconnect,
The space between us all does affect...
Why did you hurt me
Why couldn't you see...
Standing on the edge of the concrete bridge
I look down towards the icy cold water below...
You are my worst enemy
A lost and forgotten soul...
I sailed and I sailed
Until I finally caved...
Scratch paper served its purpose
Merely her faithful home to lie down...
Existence becomes survival,
living becomes a dream...
Without a doubt, without a care,
I sit and watch, a blindfolded stare...
When I was younger I would chase shadows
I was always in search of a darkness...
Exploding memories blurred her vision
as forgotten tears explored her cheeks...