No one knows who she really is
she is hiding behind her fear...
I've never been so exhausted
Yesterday was the first day I totally lost it...
Guilt and anxiety
Inner pain the agony...
Sitting alone in the corner of a room,
for hours on end...
Something that nobody would suspect,
from reading the poem I'm writing...
I just want to disappear. Forget that I ever...
Just another sleepless night,
The endless questions crashing down...
Sitting there, in that hospital chair
My body like lead, my hands hold my head...
As i take pen in hand,
i think about all the times...
Spiraling into a depth of delirium,
the lack of strength to grasp reality...
Would you cry
If I wanted to die...
I just want to feel alive
Hungry for life, flesh decay...