I wanna die and i know how exactly how to do it

I need a reason to get up in the morning or I'll keep waking up at night.

It is the end of something simple and the beginning of everything else

She swallows sadness instead of calories...

I don't want to do this anymore...im so sick of myself

I rather be alone than knowing one day your gonna leave me.
But..sometimes I need someone to stop me from ending me.

As i look back i realize that i didn't become a monster i just always was..

I fell... I fell for you, and you let me fall all the way to my death...

I'm trying my best to keep my hopes high,
But all of the time I wonder if I'll survive.
Last time I fell into nothing but sadness,
I can't hope again to make it past that kind of madness.

*From my poem: Revolving Door

Leaving the beloved alone under the rain means YOU have a dead and rusty heart.