I walked out in the darkness,
Little I knew about that night...
Why am I living when all I want to do is die.
Does god really love me, can he tell me why...
The beautiful girl stares blankly
at a room full of her peers...
Everyday I feel the same
Horribly empty inside...
I remember looking down from the balcony
curtains closing, standing next the railing...
I feel his breath
Cold like the winter wind...
Through the fish-eyed lens of tear stained eyes
I can barely define the shape of this moment in...
I stare out the glass window,
waiting for the memories to pass...
Sorry it took so long my computer crashed and it...
No one knew of her silent addiction...
I hate to see flowers die
it's like the worst pain...
I hear voices saying load my gun
and i hear voices saying don't load my gun...
Cutting is my counseling
my only way of life...