The hardest thing I ever did perhaps, was confronting the fact that I am not ready to die, regardless of my feeling and how much I want to.

I'm down to being a ghost
a silent watcher of
the world I'm trapped in

5 meters,10 meters now a light years away, swallowed up by the depths and the distance of numb space and gloomy skies.

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Being alone is so addictive

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So I must ask;
Are you apologizing
to the table
or to yourself?

And here she was
A broken piece of
Crystal
Who could never find the words to
Fix her
Cracks

I just wanna believe it's true.
But it's not. I just woke up that the things I used to know was blown away like a piece of dandelion departing away from its origin.

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Why does it hurt so much to know that if you had to choose, I wouldn't be chosen?

They tell you how much you’ll love your baby when they’re born. But they don’t tell you how much you’ll hate what they did to your body...and how you’ll never be the same. Vanity or not; that’s something I wasn’t ready for.

Complex, be it superior or inferior, they both are catastrophic. The only difference is that, the former has no impact on your vigor and vitality. While the latter brings you physical ruin.