Tomorrow my counselling,
Then help for my drinking in despair...
I've spent my whole life feeling worthless,
But now I know that this is what worthless...
It's been almost 6 weeks since I ruined our lives,
Became someone I never thought I could be...
I just fall to pieces,
Yet you think I have it good...
I lay here, naked,
Bedcover down at my feet...
Four walls, closing in,
The ceiling is pushing down...
A flattering smile,
a laugh like the sun...
Just like the ocean,
so calm and serene...
Everybody loves their life
While I hate mine...
I start to shake, I start to quiver
My life, My life? I beg to differ...
The anniversary of my fathers departure
Now...
Silence overtakes a space once filled with...
Regret and fear now replace carefree laughter...