I feel nervous at first
as there is only blackness...
The thoughts just wont stop
Feels like caving rocks...
Im triggered today by everything
I don’t know how long it will stay...
I hate the urge
I shouldn’t want to purge...
How does one contend?
I see you fishing in the reservoir...
Liar, Liar pants on fire,
You swore you’d never leave...
Pink and spotted, I’m vibrant but childish
I see the same bed, whether it be made or a mess...
The Me I have been creating is for Another.
Though I came to realize it long ago...
What good am I if I’m just flesh and bone,
When I scare away everyone that’s mattered...
2am in the back of the car
Windows down, we’ve not made it very far...
Oh how they wonder why I wish to die,
a stupid crime...
A deafening sound of deep dark silence,
Washes over his damaged soul...