I keep my temper but I am angry.
I save my arguments for in the shower...
I walked every avenue of avoidance just to find...
Everytime I shut down the experience it resurfaced...
It's the song I had on repeat when I was broken.
The one I kept going back too...
I am not OK.
I haven't been OK in a long time...
I thought I was getting better,
I thought I was free from the dark path...
I start to forget every single piece of me
that I used to take care of and love...
Sleeping and crying is all i can do,
Everything hurts from missing you...
Can’t hold it in any longer
So, I retreat to my safe space...
I want to rip my skin to shreds
Feel my bones pop like a cup of tea...
Within the walls that barricade her heart
Hate soars above the railings of despair...
I didn't know what a massacre is then.
I didn't know what it entails...
They're going to notice soon -
the hollowness in my eyes...