For hours I waited
Holding the phone...
Wondering why I exist in this world
Is it to seek happiness or glory...
Flipping on an old country tune
Not something I'd usually listen to...
Sitting in Gods lap,
holding great grandmas hand...
Look beyond,
The obvious...
I bury now this cold dead heart,
I wish I knew this from the start...
I've lived half my life inside daydreams and lies,
with edible questions and awkward lines...
I thought I could live without you,
It's getting harder and harder to do...
Pain it tears inside me
As I remember your sweet face...
It's difficult for me to pretend
That I am not upset or sad...
I step through that door
Memories embedded...
Bittersweet perfection,
Brings a tear-drop to my eye...