I struggle to put my heart under arrest;
cuffed; restrained from loving you...
My senses awaken at the sight of this place
I've been here before but for a different face...
I want to make things better
But I do not know how...
Who is holding me to ransom?
Who is raping my soul...
Fixated thoughts dilute with time
as patience strengthens...
Seeking a path through
the field of sadness...
To the one who finds joy
as my shuddering breath threatens...
Under everything,
rocks, soil, worms and dead wasps...
I vanished in the midnight wind
Neath silver glare of hallowed moon...
Singing pain felt inside
Overbearing emotions untold...
I wear this
fake smile...
Four tears, I counted, that strolled down my face
Arguments turn into memories that I can't erase...